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The worst part about a 365

Sometimes life is wonky.

Sometimes life is boring.

Sometimes it’s shitty.

That’s when a 365 gets challenging.  During those moments I begrudgingly find my camera and snap a photo.  Sometimes it’s a nondescript scene.  The kids are easy targets.  But it’s always done without passion and always half-assed.  Half-assed is being generous.  Most of my life is done half-assedly.  I snap the picture only because I’m supposed to snap one frame a day.

Sometimes I even think, “Fuck it.  Just quit the project.  No one would care.  You wouldn’t even care!  Just fucking stop and lay on the couch.  What’s the point?”

Good question.  Right now, there is no point.  Just some stupid promise I made to myself.

But a few weeks from now there will be a point.  A few years from now there will be a point.  Just because I don’t understand the point right now doesn’t mean it isn’t valid.

The point is my days seen with my eyes.  Sometimes it’s shitty.  Sometimes it’s happy.  But it’s always full of life: good, bad, shit, ease, difficulties, half-assed, full-on boogie, laughter, tears, love.  It’s all there.  And when I can’t fully see the beauty, my camera always shoves it in my face when I’m ready.  “Look what you were missing, Dummy.”  My camera can be a bitch.

So I keep shooting and try to crawl out.
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  • Heather Burrell - You never fail to make me smile.October 30, 2015 – 10:31 pmReplyCancel

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  • Cath Britton - so relatable. did you know you had a twin? 😉November 17, 2015 – 2:54 pmReplyCancel

  • 365 Questions Answered » Erika Ray Photography - […] During those tough periods, remind yourself why you’re doing a 365 project.  If it feels forced or uninspired, stay put for a little longer.  I can look through each of my 365’s and feel the excitement or love I felt during that year.  I can also feel the pain and frustration.  I can see my growth and my inspired periods. […]January 14, 2016 – 9:01 amReplyCancel

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