I should call the second half of 2013: The Six Months of Firsts. Very soon, I will start a new job. It will be the first time in 13 years that I will not be able to report to the office in my pjs. It will be the first time in 13 years that I will be unable to do all our grocery shopping at 2 p.m. I will no longer be able to work while the boys are sick and still not miss a conference call. No more quilting in between appointment. No more early elaborate dinners on our stove. This is going to be difficult…
For a little bit. Change always is, right? My parents have literally laughed at this life-change. “You have no idea” is what they’ve loving said. And they’re wrong, I totally have an idea! It’s going to be huge. But I’m ready for it. I realized before the lay-off that my old job wasn’t really necessary “as-is”. It was only a matter of time and they finally looked at the clock. So now it’s my time to accept it.
I always felt like a sham of a Working Mom. Minus the days I wasn’t over-night or the days I spent driving 400 miles, my version of Working Mom was easy. That ease disappeared with the lay-off. I am extremely fortunate that I was able to work my old job while the boys were very young. Yes, being in a hotel was very difficult while nursing. When the boys were sick and cried for me over the phone, that would crush anyone’s heart. Miles spent alone in a car could be extremely destructive and lonely. But I always looked at my job for the benefits it gave me and not for the ickiness it sometimes provided. I plan on continuing this attitude.
I’m very lucky. I will get to work in a big office where I know at least one good friend. I will get to wear casual clothes and not have to buy an entire business wardrobe. I’m also lucky because I had people looking out and advocating for me. I get to return to an industry that I’ve been with for 13 years. It’s a change and I’m taking it with a spoonful of sugar. Any other way isn’t worth it.
Hang with me during these changes, won’t you? I’ll work on getting the next Lazy Girl quilt post up. It’s by far the easiest part of the series. I’ll still be updating my 365. I’ll still be photographing and writing about our life. I can’t quit y’all. This is just a new path for me to wander down. A path that will be full of newness. There’s got to be some good posts in that, right?
I plan on celebrating the end of an era until I start. I think I’ve got a little more than a week.
Let’s get this party started!