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22 :: 30

I’ve had days off of work in the past 5 months and it felt funny.

What did I do all day?

I just want to sleep.

I don’t feel like doing all these shitty errands.

I took today off.  Had some random vacation left and we’re hosting Friends’ Thanksgiving tomorrow.  Might as well start the weekend early.

This was the first day off that I didn’t ask any of the above questions.  I enjoyed fighting the crowds at Trader Joes.  Why yes, I will run into Whole Foods.  Stop at Sew to Speak and pick up some the Charley Harper fabric?  Don’t mind if I do.  Sew a little while the washer runs?  Yes, please.  Oh my goodness, take a nap?  Thank you, day off!

I don’t feel plagued by the first question because I feel back to normal.  When I say this, please don’t think I was extremely depressed and not accepting it.  I’m pretty open with those feelings and you would have read about it.  I just didn’t feel settled.  Nothing felt ordinary or normal.

Last night I had dinner with one of my favorite friends.  We went through our list of happenings and family business.  And then she asked, “What else is new?”  Happily, I replied “Nothing.  Life feels boring.  And I like it.”  “Boring” is probably an awful word for this state.  My mother would flip out.  “Boring” was almost as bad as “shit-head” in our family.  But it’s the word that comes to mind.  There’s no drama that I can’t handle.  There’s no doom on the horizon that I have to accept.  Life just is and I enjoy that.

22 :: 30

For the boring night ahead.

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  • Uwe Allgäuer - That photo above, what was it taken with? Or what camera and lenses are you using?
    The photo is simple but very rich witch colour, with sharpness and blurring just the right way.November 30, 2013 – 12:37 pmReplyCancel

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